Muse

Inspiration for me comes from everywhere. It’s rather ambiguous as it can happen from looking up at city lights inebriated closing in on the point of a blackout to laughing at “The Thirst” that unfortunately has become an epidemic in many young adults (men and women). Perhaps it allows me to take positives from even the most negative situations or maybe it’s just my way of dealing with all of life’s ills; regardless it’s what I do.

Piggybacking off of my inspirations, I find myself generalizing a lot more these days. Sure, everyone is different and from a personal stand point it’s totally unfair to look at someone and judge them on past experiences, but I do; everyone does. I guess it makes things simpler, rather than truly gaining an understanding I err on looking to the past for answers about my future. It’s not a good “way to be, but I’ve seldom found a reason to be open and to let all that go…seldom.

But when I do… I negate all that. Whatever I’ve heard… Whatever I should think…  I even negate what the respective person has told me, because every now and then there are these people you meet that you know or at least want to have an impact on your life. I can’t call it, but my best experiences are the ones I can’t explain.

So I can’t really trip when people do it to me…can I? I can’t stand being generalized, but it happens. Perhaps I’m dealing with the baggage from "hearts that I didn’t break" or maybe “she’s” just expecting me to be like everyone else; regardless it’s not a good position.

But she’ll never know… There a millions reasons why certain things shouldn’t be, but that’s easy; I’ve never been a fan of taking the easy way to anything. Sure, I make things harder on myself, but who doesn’t?

“But she don’t like that, he’s not havin’ that, so those opposites attract like mag-a-nets…”

I’d rather clear my conscious and discuss issues, as opposed to simply letting things weigh on me. I can’t just lose out purely based on a pride issue. I’m better than that, and hypothetically so are we… We talked about our issues and from an underlying standpoint realized there’s something real there.

It’s new, scary and different, but I’m down to work…

But this is all hypothetical, of course…